I have gone
from having feelings to having none at all and I don't know if
I like it or not. Nothing really matters to me anymore. I don't
get excitied, I don't really like music anymore. I don't
love anyone, I have basically given up all my wishes. I just get
really mad. I don't cry. I don't talk as much. I'm not
me. I don't even self harm anymore. I just wake up and kill
time everyday. But it's better than feeling everything. And
having everything matter. And always being exictied and anxious and
loving everyone and having tons of wishes and always
crying.