Dear self,
I shouldn't be afraid to talk to my own mother.
When my mother is the one who brings me down, makes me feel bad about myself, and is usually the one making me cry - I'd say something is wrong.
She's never once told me that she was proud of me and as I sat in my first block class today, I realized that. As I choked back tears I realized I'm still not what she wants.
I haven't talked to my dad in two months. Haven't spoken one word.
My fake happiness is wearing away thin and I really want to finish my self off. I don't see why I should continue. At this point there is nothing left.
I give up trying to make things okay - they never will be.
Sincerely, Hannah
I shouldn't be afraid to talk to my own mother.
When my mother is the one who brings me down, makes me feel bad about myself, and is usually the one making me cry - I'd say something is wrong.
She's never once told me that she was proud of me and as I sat in my first block class today, I realized that. As I choked back tears I realized I'm still not what she wants.
I haven't talked to my dad in two months. Haven't spoken one word.
My fake happiness is wearing away thin and I really want to finish my self off. I don't see why I should continue. At this point there is nothing left.
I give up trying to make things okay - they never will be.
Sincerely, Hannah
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dragonfly26
1 decade ago
Please don't give up. Even if your happiness is fake now, it will be real. You just have to be patient. Things will go right. Things will be okay. And if things are going bad with your parents, then know that it's temporary. Now, I'm trying my best not to sound insensitive, but maybe you should try to work things out with them. I know it can be hard, but in the end, you'll be better off. I know that you have trust issues, and I know that it seems impossible to do this. And I'm not the best at giving advice, but I want things to be better for you. I'm here if you need to talk more. I wish you the best~
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