did you know what you were doing
when you bought me decorations for my bedroom?
and when you kissed me in each park in town?
when you crossed off each ‘first’ on my list and
let me grow accustomed to falling asleep
with your teddy bear in my arms? did you plant
memories of you in my life so that in one year
or 2 months
or 3 weeks
or 4 days
i would be in for the most painful goodbye?
r.m.