mine...
When I think of the words that were said to me a fury begins to
grow within me
Cuz after you said it you just disappeared
And this mark that I bear is still seen and it wears thin
Left me struggling to breathe, man I‘m out of air
You said that you still cared for me but only talk to me a month
out of a year
Baby turn around let me see your smile not a frown cuz even when I
feel down I’ll still go around and out of my way for you no
matter what you do I’ll still see to it that you make it
through
Thinking of what left your lips before you dipped out of our
relationship, I wanna punch something and smash my fist, snap my
wrist and try to fix this problem between our tryst
Mouth to mouth, hip to hip, doubt with doubt and skip the slip
Don’t wanna fall into another story don’t wanna have to
make another rhyme
Don’t wanna rewind the time, I’m in purgatory, just a
heartache that went spiraling for miles behind the lies
My eyes can’t cry no more they’re dry and I’m
still here asking why
Bloody buckle, broken bones
Cracked knuckle and kickin cones
Hurting heart, hiding hell
Wounding words and wishing wells
Just a mess of distress and I gotta compress the rest, suppress
testin death until I can fester the courage to pester the jester
who invested in me, gave me light and requested me, resurrected me
just to say you detested me
Got a visitor at my door, ringing the bell but I can’t take
anymore, hidin in my room not even walking to a store, scared
I’ll see your face if I even walk a little more,
I did everything for - you but it wasn’t enough
You called my bluff and when it came time I wasn’t tough
enough to hold this stuff, it’s getting rougher with each
puff I inhale, my mail’s gone stale cuz I move at the pace of
a snail that’s been nailed in place, can’t erase the
memory of your face no matter how faded I become, jaded ain’t
this fun?
And can I just say that I hated feeling that way, felt naked and
betrayed when I replayed the voice mail that said “I’ll
stay”, but you strayed, And I’d trade anything for
you
And I never knew a heart could be down weighed, all because you
masqueraded the love we made with a hand grenade
Bleeding blades, beaten bad
Mistakes made, and mildly mad
Poisoned pistols, pulling pins
Serrated slicer, and simmering sins
Now read me back what I said so I can relive the moments again,
Don’t want to leave my own head but I have to if I want this
hell to end
Hard to move on when I'm still stuck in the past
We didn’t last but let’s play pretend and say we
had,
Would we still be together forever or would it be over just as
fast
If I had just taken off my mask instead of putting tasks ahead of
the questions you’d ask would the blast
That scattered the cast not have shattered the glass
Could it have been mended if only we had defended our right and
surrendered the fight and bended the light
No more energy to write about the gap in an ending full of ash I
was just being polite, trash the stash and crash, quick let’s
end it all tonight.
Looking in the mirror trying to see my reflection clearer but even
as I get nearer the face I see doesn’t look like me, not like
how I used to be, before this misery you caused, Just feelin empty
and incomplete, hear your laugh when I'm creepin down the
street and my heart still skips a beat
Nothing could compete cuz my love for you will never be
obsolete
Man if I had just one chance to go back before the romance, before
I gave you a second glance and warn myself in advance that your
look would keep me in a trance,
I could stop myself there on the street and say “hey man
don’t go this way. Just keep on walking do what you gotta do
on a different day, cuz I got x-ray vision and I can see that the
buffet you’re going to has a cliché in store for
you” and I can try to delay my road-to-be, lead myself astray
from the path destiny has chose for me,
And if I don’t believe me I got scars that I can see, pull up
my sleeve and say “this is what she did to me. We used to
call her our sweetie but candy gives you cavities and it’s a
tragedy that this happened to me, and naturally I wanted to ignore
the assault and battery, the felonies and gallantly I tried to
happily be what she needed, but she just made my life into a
travesty so take it from me, turn around back down the street, go
home and go to sleep and stay inside another week, maybe smoke a
little weed if you feel like you need to but whatever you do
don’t go outside or she might see
you”