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single yet again only this time i decided to finish it... i never

single yet again only this time i decided to finish it... i never thought it would hurt this bad. Ive been feeling like crap. But maybe i deserve it.

After my past experiences, i thought this would be easier it really isnt and im in so much pain that its like ripping out my own heart, crushing it in

my hand and stabbing it then placing it back inside my chest. Maybe i deserve it...

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shadicdx

posted August 26, 2014 at 2:45am UTC tagged with love, breakup, story, quote

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Thinking that i used to have the perfect life when i realize now, that perfection is unknowable. I used to not be good at anything at all. I used to give up really easily to everything i ever attempted. I used to have a girlfriend that treated me badly. Not the respect i deserved. I love her. But now life changes, ive changed for the better. Im doing better in school, my new girlfriend is amazing. She treats me with the respect that i deserve and love and kindness. I used to be this kid who didnt really have many friends. I used to pathetic. A loser. But finally it hit me that even a loser like me can still have great friends. People he knows he can trust. Lately, that hasnt been many people except my brother and my girlfriend. Besides my family members, i feel comfortable being who i am and if no one likes who i am. Well thats their problem. I always changed who i was to please different people. Like my mother and father, my ex-girlfriend,her parents. But now ive changed for myself. and i feel amazing about it. No one can ever change me because they choose to. I wont ever change for someone elses happiness. If someone wants to be friends with me, they would have to accept who i am. Nothing is true, Everything is permitted.
As of late, i seem to not be able to remember who I am, Not a a person, but as a spirit. Those who i left my trust and faith in have been seeming to dim. The lights from my life, slowing fading from existance. People always tell me that im important and that i matter a lot to them. It doesnt seem like it. It seems more and more painful. Honestly, i seem to be hating myself for it as well. Like it my fault for this. Ive come to terms with this before. Although it gets worse each time it happens. So far worse that ive been reverting back to my previous stages in life. When i didnt have friends. It doesnt appear like i have friends. My "friends" say that they care about me. I think about why i should even bother. I feel like im losing. Like there is no point in trying to even live my life. But everytime i do i feel dead. I have this selfhatred, that seems to be boiling like a pool of hot blood fresh from my dying body. I cant even see into my eyes anymore. Into my very soul. Do i even have my soul? It just feels like this empty void that is just circulating in my body. Not knowing what to do. Wether to wake up or stay dormant, ill never know. Maybe one day ill be able to solve the mystery of how i truly died. Not a corpse but as a living husk that just walks around for days, months, even years. I remember when i used to laugh, about nothing at all it was better than going mad. But now i cant solve any problems i have. I just cant live on like this anymore. I want to try being better than i already am but everyone keeps pushing me down. Like im not important, Some people barely remember my own name. I barely get to remember my own name. I rarely get to hear it anymore. My name is.....

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