I always
told people..
that I don't do feelings or
relationships.
I never told them how you are the exception.
You're not anymore, and that is scary
How you fall out of love.
How it took so long.
How it hurt, but at the same time, didn't.
And I watch people.
I wonder who they love, who they are living for.
I wonder how different they act around that person.
If they get soft and shy.
If they get happy and excited.
I wonder how their life will turn out.
Love is amazing,
but it is pain.
Some people are not strong enough for love.
Some people do not survive.
I drowned.
By the time someone discovers my body,
I will have been dead for awhile
now.