My best friend was crying on me today and she said " It would
be better if I just disappeared"
I told her this, and I'm going to tell you the same thing-- to
anyone who is considering it, or has attemped suicide. This is for
anyone who ever wonders, " What if I just wasn't
here?"
The world doesn't just go on because you're gone. People
will be affected by you, whether you know it or not. What about
you're family? Sure you may feel like they hate you at times,
but I'm sure they'd be up everynight wondering what
happened to their baby. They'd keep your door shut so that they
could believe that just for a second you were in there not wanting
to be disturbed. And everytime someone asked them how you're
doing, they'd break down in tears. What about your
girlfriend/boyfriend? How would they feel when you were gone? Who
knows if they might do the same? And what about all the people who
didn't even know you? You may be thinking that they
wouldn't notice. I'm telling you that you're wrong.
Last year, a guy name Spencer Tate killed himself. He went to my
school- the grade below me. I didn't know him. Yet I felt
crushed. I had never before heard the halls in my school so silent
when we found out. A lot of people were crying. A lot. I ended up
having to go to counsling every week because I couldn't deal
with the pain from his death. It affected me so much that it made
me want to live my life for him, because his was cut so short. I
think about him everyday, and I didn't even know his
face....What about your closest friend? I'm sure as all hell
they'd miss you like crazy. They'd stay up for nights on
end wondering why. Why didnt they do something. Why didn't they
see?
So please don't tell me that the world would be better off
without you, or that you would just be better off dead. I'm
telling you right now that even though you don't know it--
people do notice you. People do love you. People do want to help
you. And there would be so many hurt by your death. I know it
may hurt right now. Who knows? It might've even gotten to the
point where you don't feel anything. You may be broken down
right now, but I promise you that you are not beaten! You may have
to fight a little harder, a little longer just to see that light at
the end of the tunnel, but I promise you it's there. You may
feel like you're falling through endless darkness afriad that
no one will be there to catch you when you reach the end, but I
promise you someone will.
Please. Think about your worth. Every person has it. Every person
deserves to live. I am here. I will help you if you need it.
Please. You are important. You are worth it. You are stronger than
this.