You can't keep doing this. You can't disappear for months

You can't keep doing this.
You can't disappear for months at a time and
then all of a sudden say hi out of nowhere and send a few messages.
And then disappear again to just repeat the process all over again.
Do you know how much that messes with me? Especially since I'm crazy about you!
Every time I want to believe you are back for good, but then you disappear on me again and I lose that hope.
It's time to get off this roller coaster. Please just choose, stay or leave. I can't handle this any longer.