I pretended that i didn't look at you when you didn't

I pretended that i didn't look at you when you didn't notice I was.
I pretened not to light up when you entered  a room.
I preteneded not to be upset when you didn't talk to me.
I pretended I din't look forward to seeing you every day
I try to pretened that i wasn't hurt when you broke my heart I try to pretend I don't miss you