I like being alone, because i can wonder, i can think, i can

I like being alone, because i can wonder, i can think, i can be myself, its relaxing.

BUT

being lonely is draining, it's such an empty feeling that crushes your cheast, it feels like a heavy weight.

And all you really want is some company, to be apart of something that means something.
You find yourself checking your phone for any sign of communication
A text or a phone call.
And when you reaise that a phone call won't come
you try distract yourself from the hard truth that stings
like a fresh punch every time.




I guess being alone is nice, but being lonely isn't.