My eyes are waterlogged, sunken in my skull and incredibly red.

My eyes are waterlogged, sunken in my skull and incredibly red. I sit, listless, and stare into space. My eyes are swollen, and thus I cannot really see; everything has started to haze, but I have tried - I've tried so hard - to find something...important, or worthwhile. Something beautiful, perhaps, but there is nothing. I do not know if I am blind or simply numb