I keep getting random pangs of anxiety, and at first it was

I keep getting random pangs of anxiety, 
and at first it was only for a few seconds 
and then it would go away, but this time
it has been a few minutes that feels like
forever and I can't shake it, and the real
kicker is I have nothing to be anxious
about rn? (well, I do, but I have a plan
and I'm quite calm about it.. for now.)

I'm so used to being anxious all the time,
like I would legit shake and cry and have
this urge to shat my pants the whole way
into school ever since like 6th grade if not
earlier.and I thought it had gotten better, bc
when I was going to school with my friend,
I didn't get anxious about every single class,
but then I sunk back to where I was and it
is just getting worse and worse.and I'm like
trash bc I can't even get a job, and I can't
even go to school, bc people.