I just sit there and this feeling comes I want to take that razor

I just sit there and this feeling comes
I want to take that razor
Slice open my wrist and see the blood
I need the pain
I need to feel
Is this the only way?
I don't even have a reason
I just want to cut
I love the rush
Because I'm feeling something
And it's beautiful
In a messed up way
It's my drug
And I never want to stop