a month ago, i was
still wrecked.
i still am pretty wrecked. but the difference between now
and then is that i am thankful. i am thankul that all of
this has happened, because it has made me a much stronger
person. it taught me that if i don't get what i want
the first time, that it isn't my only chance -- that
i should keep hoping and keep trying. it has helped me to
be more positive about things and more confident about
what the future holds. if what i wanted so badly was just
handed to me, I know my skin wouldn't be as tough and
the fears I find a bit silly now would have still been
some of my biggest. this whole experience just taught me
to not be afraid, that my first chance will not be my
last, that things will get better, even if they
have to get worse before it.