All I have is horrible friends. Ones who have said they wanted

All I have is horrible friends. Ones who have said they wanted to write sl*t on my face whilst as I sleep, ones who said they were going to whisper things in my ear so I dream of being bullied. Ones who have called me names and tripped me , held me against my will, kicked me(not that hard tho) pushed me over. But if their "only joking" I'm the bad one for reacting. But if I didn't have them as friends. I would have no one. And one of them cares about and the others claim they do but certainly dont act like it