i need to let some things off my chest right now
so i apologize for any grammar mistakes in advance. I feel so
horrible lately. My mom has brain cancer and can either take chemo
or be put into palliative care. chemo seems to be pushing it
though. I havent seen my mom in roughly four years, and now she
might die. right when i have the chance to go see her. she might
die. also my dad lost his job and keeps snapping at me about it.
it's not my fault you lost your job ok dont yell at me and cuss
at me. and just generally speaking i feel bad. i feel dysphoric and
isolated and depressed. i have been trying so hard to post art onto
tumblr only to get like 13 notes, i need a major confidence
booster. nobody says nice things about my art or even me anymore.
im such a horrible person. even my mom said i have a huge ego.
there nothing to look forward to anymore. everything is going down
hill. my stress relief was in art but now when i do it it makes me
more stressed than i was before. id rather be dead right now
honestly. notice me. notice me, im a boy, i want to have fun
drawing, i want my mom to get better, i want my dad to stop yelling
all the time. not to mention things at school. people avoid me and
i have no friends. everyone i know is transferring to this stupid
arts school. my "boyfriend" doesnt bother speaking to me
hardly at all and would rather go off on his own than to even say
bye????? idk how relationships work but im pretty sure youre
supposed to like the person youre dating and i get the feeling he
doesnt like me at all. like what the heck man. theres so many
things happening and you cant manage to comfort me? I have internet
friends that do a better job at making me feel better than
you
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