I swear I’ve written over a dozen times in my head
but the words never found my mouth. But that’s just like
me — inarticulate and constantly halfway out of your
life.
I meant to call but my fingers could never seem to find the
courage. Instead, I kept them distracted in the hands of all
the wrong people.
“Your eyes never quite look the same twice, and I’m
scared for the time when I’ll look and no one will be
behind them.”
I never knew what you meant until one night it was 3 A.M.
and I caught sight of myself in the mirror and couldn’t
tell where I had run off to.
I go to sleep one person and it feels like I’m an
entirely different person when I wake up. And you just never
understood. It’s so hard to hold on to people when
you’re constantly losing yourself.