I can't remember the last time it left my lips. I don't

I can't remember the last time it left my lips.
I don't recall when I last spoke it with gritted teeth.
When was the last time I had to bite my own tongue to keep the word vomit down?
What was it that I was so adament on keeping from escaping my breath?
What was your name?
When was the last time I thought about you?

Its been a long time.

I don't think i'll be able to speak them three words again without your name automatically following.
If only I could remember it.
Maybe it would be easier to forget if I could remember why I forgot in the first place...
On second thought, maybe I don't want to remember....Maybe I don't want to remember you at all.