right, tell them you love them. Trust
your instincts. If you feel a wall between you and another
person, it’d be best not to climb it. It’ll crumble
if it’s supposed to. Practice saying goodbye when it
hurts. Prepare yourself so the words don’t feel like
thorns. Say them until they’re nothing. If you know in
your heart this person is right for you, but not right today,
bury the ring in the dirt of a potted orchid that will sit on
your window sill. Water it. Kiss the wrong people only once.
Make peace with your demons. Make peace with others’
demons. Write them on the paper from the diaries you had when
you were 9. Burn them with the flame of a lavender candle. Hold
on to the night you visited your best friend and you both
drunkenly cried in the bathroom over how much you love each
other. Hold on to the song you heard when you were driving home
the next morning. Remember that other people are people too.
Try to love the ones who have what you want. How lucky they
are. Leave if you want to. Home isn’t a place and it
certainly is not another person. It will be the best sort of
aching you will feel - coming back to
yourself.