I’m sorry mom and dad, I know I make you sad. I’m
sorry to all my friends, that my sadness never ends. My life is
just a mess and I spend the day depressed, but it’s just
because of so much stress in my chest, and these chemicals in my
mind are anything but kind, but I keep letting you down when you
guys aren’t around, and some days I just want to isolate myself
and not need any help, and I’m sorry for plaguing you with my
sadness and this eternal madness, I should’ve done better, but
I can’t seem to get things together, you can call me an
attention seeker if you want, but you don’t understand how it
hurts so much, I’m sorry mom I fücked up, I’m sorry I was
never enough. All I’ve ever been is a problem and I tried my
best to stop them. But there’s this chaos inside of me that
ignited this fire you see, and I can’t seem to put it out no
matter how loud I scream or shout. I am full of positivity and
smiles but even that’s been gone for a while, and now I feel
the world collapsing as it’s hanging on its axis. I’m sorry
I’m just a soul with issues and I make you cry so you need to
use your tissues, and I just come with more and more and make
everything so sore. I’m sorry to myself the most, the fact that
I became a ghost, that I lost my purpose and let the world hurt
so much, but I’m lost and can’t figure out what to do and
I’m too afraid to tell you. Flashbacks of last year haunt me,
and my memories they taunt me and after staying strong for ever
so long, I’ve finally accepted everything is wrong.
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