Younger me really thought by now I'd have friends I could

Younger me really thought by now I'd have friends I could share everything with. But I don't. And so now I wonder if I ever will have such close friends. Other times I don't mind so much, I have my internet friends who I can chat to regardless of Timezone. But other times, I just want someone there to pour my all to and getting a hug from a friend is nice too. I don't know why it's all coming at once today. I have a friend but she says things that rub me the wrong way. I don't like her tone and how she's so dependant. She has lots of friends, I don't know why she's sticking by me. I know why. It's because we have history. Friends since forever. But I'm more than ready to say goodbye to years of friendship, especially if we're not the same anymore. Ah,