Well it's five in the morning, and I'm sitting at the kitchen

Well it's five in the morning, and I'm sitting at the kitchen table waiting for a pot of water to start boiling so I can make some Mac n' chz. Lately I wake up every morning at 3. I don't know why it's like clock work though. Usually I take something to knock me out but guess was hoping I'd fall asleep sooner than later. Waiting for you to reply. For you to reply and say something that will make me angry enough to stop checking on here again, and make me feel as if I could really move on. I need to do something. I'm glad your finally getting out of the house but for myself it seems as if I've been sitting home for months. Sleeping everyday away till I have to work. It's not even that I'm sad it's just that I feel like doing nothing. I feel constantly tired. Feel like everyday I wake up and its pointless so why try. So I don't. Dreading making an effort to get ready for work already. Maybe I'll feel better by tomarrow morning though because hopefully I'll be exhausted. Hopefully I'll pass out. 5:27Am