I go back and forth between thinking I'm too mean or too
nice. I've decided. I'm way too nice. Like annoyingly
nice. It would help to be a little meaner. It's silly. Being
resilient, having standards for myself, others always made it
into a bad characteristic. When I said no, I was being mean. When
I finally snapped, you had the audacity to ask if my bad mood was
because of my period. How conceited does someone have to be to
not think for a second that maybe I was "in a bad mood"
because of them? I still don't understand how being confident
in things I'm good at, is me being up myself, or thinking
I'm better than others. It all seems like deflecting. And
maybe being mean is the best thing for me.