Depression Quote #7076299
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all quotes · depression · love · quote ·
And maybe I'm lost, in a way that's never meant to be
And maybe I'm
lost, in a way that's never meant to be found.
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posted December 29, 2017 at 8:22am UTC tagged with depression, love, quote
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- nostalgia is bittersweet and tonight i've just been completely immersed in it. hello. long time no see. how has everyone been? not like anyone cares, but i'm sadly still (physically) alive. self-serving rant. don't even bother. things have completely changed: no glimmer of hope i was clinging on to ever materialised. i am left even more alone than ever because of how much of a different person i've become; i don't blame anyone for it, most of the time it doesn't even matter -- this is just one of the rare times where i feel it really does. i haven't been feeling like a human at all. i spend most of my waking hours running around classes and to places i don't want to be in, all while being completely detached and half-asleep from a settled lethargy. from before the sun rises till well after the sun sets, every single f*cking day. i don't remember the last time i smiled. i don't remember the last time i felt like i had a good day. the fact that this is the life i've been forced into is only beginning to set in. feeling like a complete wreck has screwed with my emotions way too much. one moment i'm flaring up, cursing at everything and everyone, the next moment i'm just in pieces. either way, i'm completely consumed. there is nothing i feel like i'm really comfortable at and that i can find solace in. writing bad poetry has taken up most of my time and gotten my mind off my real life, but my imagination is running dry and i feel that i should just accept that i suck and stop writing/trying to do something i'm not meant to do. for the millionth time, everyone is sick of hearing about this whole situation. don't ask me what's wrong. this is what's wrong. i won't even bother to try and salvage this (anymore). i've tried to find a way out on my own, spent hours talking to people who know better than to just simplay say that things are going to be okay, etc. and the consensus was the same: i'm screwed and that's just how unfair life is. i myself am sick of having to talk about this but it's just something that's constantly nagging in my head because i'm living in it. i want to leave.
- 22 December 2018 I imagined my mind knowing better felt my viscera quiver. the birds get startled into flight though always round-trip. it’s good to be home alone not that you would if I had anything to do about it but we make do. life sucks its thumb. you’re right where you’re meant to be. who’s to say blankets aren’t party dresses or that eyes can only wet in one way. gloveless in this eventide chill. luckily we aren’t parting thickets for interstices for clarity. I empathise with the trees that bend out of light’s way at least till rough limbs creep up gently against glass they refuse to crack. dirty bedroom window remains so. it treasures the head that rested on it oil and all pondering the ease with which we dance around naked intention. show me it’s possible to live and for quite a while without flowering a new wound. how lovely we are in our natural state. taste of raw tongue on my tongue waves fragile at our feet. we stay dipped long enough for our digits to grow old shrivel without fear. something once felt too cruel to endure. I would not have chosen to float if given the option. but now i’ll swim.
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- Imagine this... One day you and your husband, or you and your wife go to the doctors, you find out that you are pregnant! you celebrate you plan your future you dream of all things happy, you wonder what it will be, a boy or a girl??? You find you'd be happy with both, nine months pass, the female is on the table, she's giving birth, out comes the baby. It cries you hear its glorious voice, you get shot into the future you imagine them going to school, first date, all of the firsts, you hold it close and smile. 5 years later your little baby starts school, mommy and daddy feel lonely so they plan another baby, by the age of 6 you have a new child, another bit of perfection! By the age of ten the first child feels ignored, the second feels adored, the eldest shrugs the feeling off, says to themselves it will get better as time goes on. You are pregnant again, you say this is your last child, you make it the best. The eldest was a boy, strong, smart, loving and a sweet brother, the second was a daughter, you swore to her you'd never let her littel heart be broken, the last was a son, another one, a trouble maker. By age two his main goal is to steal the spotlight, by age five all he wants is mommy and daddy's eyes on him. The eldest feels ignored, but he's fifteen he pushes through, the daughter cries for you, all she wants is your attention, but your eyes are on the youngest, you want to treasure his childhood. 3 years flash by, your oldest is graduating, poof into college, he kisses his sister's head and tells her he'll always be there for her, then he leaves. You still are treasuring the youngest, you want him to stay a baby, so you ignore your daughter. She cries out for help, shes 15 now, she sobs, she starves herself to be perfect for another man some day, and she slices her skin. You've lost all interest in her, she only wants to be alone anyway, you let her. She rememebers her brother, who is now in college, who never comes home, she wants him to be there, she wants him to care, she needs him. Finally at age 16 she can't take it anymore, everyone is prettier, everyone is more loved, she takes a bottle of pills, puts her head in the noose, and steps off of the chair. Suddenly you have a flash back, to that beautiful baby girl in your arms, you cry out, begging her to come back, but it's too late, don't you see? You killed your own child, you didn't see it, you can only blame yourself. The day of the funeral her brother comes back into town, he cries on the grave of his dead little sister, he begs her to forgive him, he begs her to come back. But she can't, she's dead. Your eldest turns to alcohol, drinking away the memories, in 5 years he's a full blown alcoholic, and he takes his life and kills himself, he needs her in his life. Your youngest is alone now, you try to stay strong, you try todo everything for him but you just can't. Both of his parents fall into depression and he's left alone. He struggles through but all of a sudden he's faced with bullying, they say he's the reason that his sister killed herself, was it true? He clings to drugs, they take him away into a place of peace, at age 18 he's almost going to graduate, he panics, he over doses and you are alone. All of you children are dead, what do you do now? Life is over, you live but its a constant struggle, it never gets better, it never gets easier. You wish you could go back, you would do anything just to see them again, but you can't. You die inside. Yes you matter, don't give up. And always pay attention to others actions. Save a life. MY QUOTE