my names devan, i'm currently 18 years old turning 19 in may. i
know that really isn't important but to me its
everything, you see. i lost my grandpa on my 15th birthday
due to oral cancer. i resent that day. and now i hate my birthdays
because of it. me and my grandpa were two peas in a pod. we did
everything together. every weekend we'd go to our favorite
chinese buffet and eat till we couldn't anymore cause that was
our favorite food. i miss him so much it hurts more than anything
and i think that thats why i'm so broken today. he took a big
part of who i was when he left and i don't know how to get it
back. i'm in school right now and i can't even focus on my
school work cause all i can think about is him and its making me
want to cry. but i don't want the other students seeing me at
my weakest. i'm going to my boyfriends after school for the
weekend like i always do and today is our 6 month anniversary and
honestly i'm dreading it because of how i feel right now. i
just want to be held by him till we fall asleep. i don't even
want to celebrate our anniversary. not that it has anything to do
with grandpa i'm just really depressed. i could really use a
friend or something