nicholas james gardner i will love you till the end of time.

nicholas james gardner i will love you till the end of time.
theres never a day where i dont think about you
if i were able to change one thing in my whole life it would be that mistake
nothing else, even the hell i went through when i was younger 
because you made it better and now i have nothing
nothing 
no one who will make me feel special
who can tell me im beautful and ill believe it
who i can plan my future with....
i want you
I WANT YOU! AND ONLY YOU! DONT YOU SEE THAT!?!?!
i wanna yell at u for the other day
you made me think i had the one thing that made me excited to wake
that made me happy
that made me laugh
that made me smile
you made me think i had that back
bc u asked me out again
and i even asked if you were ready
and you, YOU said YES....
but then wen we called you said it was 50% in the moment
that was, that felt like a bullet to the chest....
and i forgive you because you didnt do really anything wrong....
but like a line in cinderella : i always wind up wishing and dreaming i dont suppose that does any good at all"
im wish and dreaming for you to come back but why would you?
its me?
why would you even think about it?
im horrible in my eyes
but when we were together in my eyes you made me feel good.
you didnt make me feel like a princess,
oh but you made me feel like a queen......
and i will try my best to return the same, i wanna make u feel like ur king
that ur not waiting to find a princess, but you had already had your queen.........
which i would have hoped to be me
but who was i kidding.....
ur to amazing, cute,funny, and smart for me....
ilysm nicholas james gardner.............
i hope you'll get together with me again but this time just not in the moment...