"Istg if you're messing with me"
....
"i'm not, but we can pretend like i am"
....
"no, our friendship and your life isn't a joke to me, so
i'm not going to pretend."
please, let it be a joke.
If it is, i'd be relieved,
but also terrified asf.
I can't handle something like this.
You have no idea how much you mean to me.