Today we had another argument. He thinks I'm just jealous because
of his friend/girlfriend or whatever. But I'm just scared he'll do
the same thing my "best friend" did, as soon as he had a girlfriend
he just stopped talking to me. I'm so scared to lose him. At the
same time I'm mad at myself for letting him in in the first
place.
I really need to stop letting people in. After the argument I cried
for an hour. & then he called me as if it was nothing venting about
his problem.
If he doesn't want to be with me, why would he always come venting
to me? Why would he say that he'd do anything for me? Why would he
give me a car? Why would he call me back instantly, when I hung up
on him?
I just couldn't bear to lose him. I need him in my life. But I need
to stop driving him away with my insecurities. :/