I can't imagine how much it would have hurt I can't let

I can't imagine how much it would have hurt
I can't let it go 
I can't take my words back
I can only try to fix
But it's not about me-
It shouldn't be.

I feel so selfish.
I'm sorry.
A thousand sorries
will still won't be enough.

It hurts that I hurt.
It's not okay.
I lie when I say it's okay.