It's been so silent where have the months gone? I'm still

It's been so silent
where have the months gone?

I'm still struggling
I thought I was over it
but I wasn't.

Hate to see everything fall apart
Hate that I don't feel important anymore.
Or Maybe I never was.

Why do I complain?
I'm so selfish
I'm never okay with what I have.

Please don't go
I'm weak
I can't survive on my own

I'm tired
Can I get a break?