posted March 18, 2023 at 10:40am UTC tagged with
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more quotes by Dudu*
why don't you hold me underwater, so my lungs can burn more.
then raise me back up, so i can breathe that fragrance i yearn for.
see, everytime you try to spite me,
i can get more clingy and you'd hate that.
want me to be more cynical?
i can get real critical, yeah, you'd hate that.
i can make crass remarks sometimes too.
pick apart insecurities and make you feel misunderstood.
like was your tight embrace ever really good enough?
did you think the rose petals scattered across our front yard
we're blown away by some wind?
everytime you want to touch me,
i can make excuses and shut you down.
and everytime you get me flustered,
i can turn these tables, make you do what i want.
see, i can get just as twisted too.
fake an image, just like you.
be sickly sweet, have you on your kness,
then be cold as ice thereafter.
feeling empty just because,
you'll never accept all of me.
i tried to mother me for both of us.
the mum shaped hole is still here.
i can't parent myself, i'm too old for this.
my insecurities are words you have said.
my inner critic is also partly you and dad.
i'm sorry i'm moody. i thought i had forgiven you both.
especially these days it feels like a fresh wound.
forgive me, but i can't bring myself to smile.