it's just an escape i've been wanting. i don't want

it's just an escape i've been wanting.
i don't want to respond to anyone or
meet up for food or celebrate you.

just want to be with him.
engulfed by him, laughing with him. 
enjoying him.

maybe it's stupid, or a form of self sabotage.
i don't really care.

i'm sick of all these distractions and wasting time building nothing.
just want to be with the one who accepts all of me.