My life is like a merry -go-round, It still continues, but never

My life is like a merry -go-round,
It still continues, but never slows down,
I wish that everything would stop,
Take a pause, not a hop,
I never want to have a big regret,
Like my dad, every time he lights his cigarette,
My mom just doesn understand,
She doesn realize who I really am,
I cant take it anymore,
I sometimes want to walk right out our front door,
I cry myself to sleep at night,
No one knows the fight I fight,
I wish my life would just END,
But one thing keeps me going, I call her my FRIEND