Hey,
beautiful.
I'm just writing a quick quote to let out my feelings right
now. Ignore it if you want to, but some advice would help.
So there's this girl, I don't want to say her real name so
let's just call her Boo. I hate Boo. Boo can go die. She's
probably the most popular girl in the year and I hang around
with her, her twin and my other friends. I love all my other
friends; I just hate Boo. Firstly, don't judge me just because
I'm a Directioner, I'm a real person and have feelings too.
So basically I have loved the boys for about 2 years now and when I
first met Boo about, say, 9 months ago, she has started liking them
now. Hmm, I wonder why? Because she's copying me and always
wants to be better than me. So day in day out she's copying e v
e r y t h i n g I do on twitter. She's even trying to get more
followers than me. You see, I'm a really lazy and unsociable
girl, that's why I go on twitter. But she feels the need to
copy me and say she's lazy and unsociable, when she's the
most active girl ever and is always out. I mean what the actual
hell? She's so pretty and skinny and I feel like a loser when
I'm around her. Followers on twitter are the only thing I have.
So if she over takes me on this, (which by the way all her
followers are basically free follow and saved accounts) my life
will be worth nothing. Nothing. I get panic attacks over how
pathetic and worthless she makes me feel. I honestly don't
understand why she copies me, I've tried telling her but she
just makes it into a joke. I mean if you copy my tweet but give me
credit I'll be fine, probably even flattered, but she copies my
tweets, the way I type, the people I speak to. You guys might not
think it's a big deal, but it is to me. I feel inferior. A
piece of crxp next to her. I want her to stop, but I know she wont.
It hurts, I'm not going to lie. I always feel like I'm
worthless. A stain in the way. You guys might not think it's a
big deal, but it is to me. You might not understand how crxppy it
makes you feel when there's someone always trying to copy you
and be that much better than you. It's making me stressed out
and unhappy. I hate it. I hate her. But don't worry, I'll
not let her get the very best of me.
Well, I'll try not to.
<3.