the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at
the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when
all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but
stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time.
It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding
on, and when you want to move one but you’re stuck right
where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t
decide what you want. When you have so many to say but you
don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life
so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away.
It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and
look at it now and realize that things are different and they may
never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but
if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so
much time thinking about it.