i don't remember when stolen glances
turned into secretive smiles,
when exuberant laughs changed to shameless
dancing,
or when endless nights whispering turned into
early morning kisses.
i do however remember how you came to love; the way i
laughed at nothing,
and how effortlessly green my eyes looked when i
wasn't wearing any makeup,
and that little freckle that's half on the
left side of my bottom lip.
i couldn't feel myself falling in love,
i just remember waking up one day and thinking
this is it, this is what i've been
waiting for.
so please excuse me if i'm a little confused, wondering
when
the way i laughed, how i looked without makeup
on,
the freckle on the left side of my bottom lip,
stopped being enough for you.
i don't remember when you fell out of love with me,
when such a pure feeling began to cause me so much
agony,
when the one who made me feel the most alive
changed his mind.
-h.q.