‘You’ve changed’ is an insult often
intended to discourage you. Ignore it. This is your growth.
Adapting and refining yourself are all necessary parts of the
process. So long as you continue to endeavour to be kind and
compassionate you have nothing to be ashamed of.
“
“
The moon is
a loyal companion. It never leaves. it's always there,
watching, steadfast, knowing us in our light and dark moments,
changing forever just as we do. Every day it's a different
version of itself. sometimes weak and van, sometimes strong and
full of light. the moon understands what it's like to be
human.
tahereh mafi, shatter me
tahereh mafi, shatter me
did you ever stop to
consider that
maybe I've ‘mellowed down’ this year because a d.ouche playing ventriloquist no longer has me as his dummy, controlling my every word and action? Maybe I'm ‘not as crazy’ because I no longer have someone making me that way? Yes, I've definitely adopted a more easygoing and confident persona, I'm a different girl than the one you knew months ago, the one who was overwhelmingly concerned with everyone and everything, who clung to people like life preservers in the violently tossing sea that was my own self loathing, but this change had less to do with me and more to do with the people I surround myself with. I let go of someone detrimental to my mental and emotional health, and began to recognize and appreciate those who are beneficial to my health and happiness. Obviously this changed my outlook and outward presentation of myself. Yeah, I'm calmer, because I'm no longer constantly anxious about what he is going to say to me to hurt me again the next time he's with me. Yeah, I'm kinder, because I'm no longer constantly bristling with anger over crossed lines and overstepped boundaries. Yeah, I'm more generous with my time, because I'm no longer constantly spending it trying to please him and only him. I have realized that I can do more, be more, am more than what someone says I am. I have realized that smiling and laughing takes less energy than crying so hard my breaths come in shallow gasps and pacing my bedroom floor until the carpet is worn and my heels ache. I have realized high school is too short an experience to spend it miserable because you gave a boy complete control of your mind and emotions. These revelations came because he went, so I really do owe it all to him – but your observations are accurate. Thank you for noticing.
maybe I've ‘mellowed down’ this year because a d.ouche playing ventriloquist no longer has me as his dummy, controlling my every word and action? Maybe I'm ‘not as crazy’ because I no longer have someone making me that way? Yes, I've definitely adopted a more easygoing and confident persona, I'm a different girl than the one you knew months ago, the one who was overwhelmingly concerned with everyone and everything, who clung to people like life preservers in the violently tossing sea that was my own self loathing, but this change had less to do with me and more to do with the people I surround myself with. I let go of someone detrimental to my mental and emotional health, and began to recognize and appreciate those who are beneficial to my health and happiness. Obviously this changed my outlook and outward presentation of myself. Yeah, I'm calmer, because I'm no longer constantly anxious about what he is going to say to me to hurt me again the next time he's with me. Yeah, I'm kinder, because I'm no longer constantly bristling with anger over crossed lines and overstepped boundaries. Yeah, I'm more generous with my time, because I'm no longer constantly spending it trying to please him and only him. I have realized that I can do more, be more, am more than what someone says I am. I have realized that smiling and laughing takes less energy than crying so hard my breaths come in shallow gasps and pacing my bedroom floor until the carpet is worn and my heels ache. I have realized high school is too short an experience to spend it miserable because you gave a boy complete control of your mind and emotions. These revelations came because he went, so I really do owe it all to him – but your observations are accurate. Thank you for noticing.
THE VOICE THAT
ONCE
BECAME THE LIGHT
UNTO MY DARK,
BECAME THE LIGHT
UNTO MY DARK,
SOON BECAME
YOUR TOOL TO
BREAK MY HEART.
“
People
say to you ‘you've changed’ or something like
that – well, I hope for the sake of God that you have
changed, because I don't want to be the same person all my
life. I want to be growing, I want to be expanding. I want to be
changing. Because animate things change; inanimate things
don't change. Dead things don't change. And the heart
should be alive, it should be changing, it should be moving, it
should be growing, its knowledge should be expanding.—Shaykh Hamza Yusuf
”
I am carving myself into a shape that no one will recognize
because it is better beting the marble than the monster.
