WITHOUT YOU BEING BESIDE ME THE ANXIETY, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, AND
DEPRESSION START TO TAKE OVER MY MIND IT MADE ME REALIZE WAS
PUSHING YOU AWAY WAS THE WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE AND IF I COULD I
WOULD TAKE YOU BACK FASTER THEN LIGHT ITSELF BUT NOW ITS TOO LATE
AND YOU MOVED ON AND THESE THOUGHTS CAN NOW TAKE OVER ME AND DROWN
ME
The only
songs
I need
right
now:
Wrecking Ball
Heartbreak Girl
How To Save A Life
I Knew You Were Trouble
Everybody Knows
Forget Forever
Nothing Like Us
...
Right Now
Love Sucks
Wrecking Ball
Heartbreak Girl
How To Save A Life
I Knew You Were Trouble
Everybody Knows
Forget Forever
Nothing Like Us
...
Right Now
I am the Maniac,
I am the ghoul,
I'm in the shadows of my room,
this is my new hideaway,
this is my tomb,
hiding in my own doom
I am the Maniac,
I am the fool,
I found a monster in me when I lost my cool,
It lives inside of my eating what's in it's way,
I want to spend time with it,
I think I'm losing it,
or maybe I found it and I'm using it
I see something in nothingness.
I'm dying
slowly,
and I don't mind,
and you don't notice.
and I don't mind,
and you don't notice.
It doesn't matter if I have
my eyes open or
closed,
I always see the same darkness.
I always see the same darkness.
"You
okay?"
No.
Honestly, I can't even remember the last time I was okay.
No.
Honestly, I can't even remember the last time I was okay.
I'm senitive to the point
where if you
look at me strangely,
or dont look at me at all,
tell me to stop talking,
or dont talk to me at all,
dont respond to my text,
or ignore my call,
whether what you did
was an accident,
or you did it conciously,
It will change my mood
for the whole day
and my mind will be corrupted
for the whole night.
I asked the voices
Why do you want me to die?
They didnt reply to my question.
My skin deided to just bleed out the answers,
pointing out every flaw on my ugly skin,
leaving even more scrs on my body.
I hate myself even more than before.
For each purple line reminded me of a time
being strong wasn't an option.
and being weak was the only one left.
Smile [√] Get that
happy voice [√] Tell them "i'm Fine"
[√]
& Nobody will see how broken you're. <'3
& Nobody will see how broken you're. <'3
Later. I want to work in a psychiatric
hospital for young depressive. Because, me, I never had
the chance to have
some help.SM
