~it's fine,
i'm not expecting you to do anything, you don't need to.
i just needed to say something. Sucks to see a friend drown and
not know why~
"Istg if you're messing with me"
....
"i'm not, but we can pretend like i am"
....
"no, our friendship and your life isn't a joke to me, so i'm not going to pretend."
please, let it be a joke.
If it is, i'd be relieved,
but also terrified asf.
I can't handle something like this.
You have no idea how much you mean to me.
....
"i'm not, but we can pretend like i am"
....
"no, our friendship and your life isn't a joke to me, so i'm not going to pretend."
please, let it be a joke.
If it is, i'd be relieved,
but also terrified asf.
I can't handle something like this.
You have no idea how much you mean to me.
It's okay to cry over someone, even if it's a
boy. This specific boy is my best friend. I will never say
"was". I love him too much to let go, even though he
might soon, I never will. I don't care if it'll hurt me,
losing him hurts enough. Don't tell me to move on, I
don't listen to rules well, and I will never let go. I
promise. I promise you i'll never let go. You'll always
be loved by me. I promise.
4.29-30.18 x 5.31-6.1.18
Please don't let this be the last day.
4.29-30.18 x 5.31-6.1.18
Please don't let this be the last day.
4/29-30/18 x
5/31-6/1/18
6.1.18
I had another breakdown at 12:22am 6/1/18
but it wasn't because of him,
it was because of you.
I know i was playfully mad at you,
or even jealous,
just for leaving me.
But i'll never forgive myself if you actually leave.
It's 10:55am, same day and i still have the tear stains from 8 to 10 hours ago.
They're being covered and more are joining right now..
Heck, friends or not,
I love you.
Don't go...
Please fight,
fight for her,
fight for me,
fight for yourself,
fight for anyone,
fight for your life,
Please.
You don't deserve this.
No one deserves that.
We only knew each other for a month,
but so much has happened.
We were able to trust each other.
I trusted you with everything i said.
I trusted you to tell me anything and everything.
Telling me when you say you're good but you're actually not...
That hit.
That hit hard.
How could i not know better?
Telling me that i may not see you again,
i wish our last conversation wasn't that!
God, don't let that be the last time we conversate!!!!
I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE REPLACEABLE,
I DON'T WANT TO REPLACE YOU.
YOU'RE IRREPLACEABLE,
to me at least...
"You're an amazing girl (name), don't let any d*ck tell you otherwise, ok?"
"i know better than to listen to them"
I couldn't delete that conversation...
I won't ever forget you...
Please stay..
Do you know how hard it is to type all of these without being able to see the keyboard clearly?
Thank you for being my best friend, you'll always be my best friend.
I'll always love you.
Please don't let that time be the last time we conversate.
I had another breakdown at 12:22am 6/1/18
but it wasn't because of him,
it was because of you.
I know i was playfully mad at you,
or even jealous,
just for leaving me.
But i'll never forgive myself if you actually leave.
It's 10:55am, same day and i still have the tear stains from 8 to 10 hours ago.
They're being covered and more are joining right now..
Heck, friends or not,
I love you.
Don't go...
Please fight,
fight for her,
fight for me,
fight for yourself,
fight for anyone,
fight for your life,
Please.
You don't deserve this.
No one deserves that.
We only knew each other for a month,
but so much has happened.
We were able to trust each other.
I trusted you with everything i said.
I trusted you to tell me anything and everything.
Telling me when you say you're good but you're actually not...
That hit.
That hit hard.
How could i not know better?
Telling me that i may not see you again,
i wish our last conversation wasn't that!
God, don't let that be the last time we conversate!!!!
I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE REPLACEABLE,
I DON'T WANT TO REPLACE YOU.
YOU'RE IRREPLACEABLE,
to me at least...
"You're an amazing girl (name), don't let any d*ck tell you otherwise, ok?"
"i know better than to listen to them"
I couldn't delete that conversation...
I won't ever forget you...
Please stay..
Do you know how hard it is to type all of these without being able to see the keyboard clearly?
Thank you for being my best friend, you'll always be my best friend.
I'll always love you.
Please don't let that time be the last time we conversate.
i dont care anymore
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Canadian Boy❤ 10:01 PM
no whatever its fine
Me 10:02 PM
no, not whatever "its fine". i know you gotta
study but i wanna talk about this
Me 10:02 PM
we'll talk about it later but it has to be discussed
about between us
Canadian Boy❤ 10:03 PM
im not going to study anymore
Me 10:04 PM
you need to
Me 10:07 PM
Study or don't, i'm going to sleep.
------------------------------------------------
Guess we're ending discussion here.
That took a turn and i dont think i wanna say the rest
until it's situated..
Me 9:43 PM
one of my friend's girlfriend called me pretty and
she's like really pretty and idk why but like that meant
something :o and she called me nice 😊
Canadian Boy❤ 9:43 PM
wtfff i call u pretty all the timeeeeeahhhh
Me 9:44 PM
what no you dont 😂
Canadian Boy❤ 9:44 PM
f*ck off
Canadian Boy❤ 9:44 PM
yes i do
Me 9:44 PM
i rather f*ck on, excuse me and no???
Canadian Boy❤ 9:46 PM
excuse me "good morning my beautiful
girlfriend❤️"
Me 9:48 PM
i skipped the beautiful part
Canadian Boy❤ 9:49 PM
dont ever say i dont call u pretty smh cuz whenever i do u
always decline it
Me 9:50 PM
you just happen to call me pretty the days i dont feel
pretty, not my faulttt
Canadian Boy❤ 9:51 PM
dont start
Me 9:51 PM
as we are speaking the song "mrs Potato head" by
melanie martinez just came on. Coincidence????
Me 9:51 PM
hsjshsj im just saying babe
Canadian Boy❤ 9:53 PM
no ur not just saying ur saying i dont call u pretty
which is very false
Me 9:53 PM
incorrect just a little bit, you said all the time
:))
Canadian Boy❤ 9:54 PM
im peacing
Me 9:55 PM
my fault, once again. tyt
Canadian Boy❤ 9:55 PM
i have to study
Me 9:55 PM
tyt, just sucks that it's gotta end where it's
not that okay
Canadian Boy❤ 9:57 PM
because ur making me maddd
Me 9:58 PM
i'm sorry, from now on, i'll try to see from
your perspective about your opinions, good?
Canadian Boy❤ 9:59 PM
doesnt matter anyways ur never gonna listen to me
Me 9:59 PM
What are you talking about? i'll listen
@someone, 6:45
AM 5/26/18
...I'm sorry for lying,
even though I had promised before...
I did think it was nothing,
'til afterwards I had told you
the same lie I tell the other one.
I promise i'll tell you next time I can.
I'm sorry for not being honest.
It was hard to tell if it were all genuine.
I understand I can tell you anything and everything,
more than I tell the other one theirselves.
But for some reason,
I felt it couldn't be said.
It wouldn't have made sense.
By the time I tell you,
I hope to God
you'll understand...
...I'm sorry for lying,
even though I had promised before...
I did think it was nothing,
'til afterwards I had told you
the same lie I tell the other one.
I promise i'll tell you next time I can.
I'm sorry for not being honest.
It was hard to tell if it were all genuine.
I understand I can tell you anything and everything,
more than I tell the other one theirselves.
But for some reason,
I felt it couldn't be said.
It wouldn't have made sense.
By the time I tell you,
I hope to God
you'll understand...
1:24 AM 5/26/18
If i sleep now,
i'd just dream
and i don't want any more vivid imaginations.
I've hoped for too long.
If i sleep now,
i'd just dream
and i don't want any more vivid imaginations.
I've hoped for too long.
5/25/18
Today was the last day of school of sophomore year, ended things great at school..home? eh.
Things were fine, my stomach hurt most of the day but i was fine in the end. not the crying part haha
...
He asked me if i was okay..Why didn't i tell him the truth? I had promised him..I promised everything was okay. We have a bond thats great, why did i let it in the way? why did i push? Why did i lie? He said i was off today, was i really? Did it show that much?
Today was the last day of school of sophomore year, ended things great at school..home? eh.
Things were fine, my stomach hurt most of the day but i was fine in the end. not the crying part haha
...
He asked me if i was okay..Why didn't i tell him the truth? I had promised him..I promised everything was okay. We have a bond thats great, why did i let it in the way? why did i push? Why did i lie? He said i was off today, was i really? Did it show that much?
