Disgusted.
“You.
You looked at me with what I thought was love.
You smiled at me with what I thought was affection.
You made me laugh till every part of my body shook.
I was in heaven, I was in your arms.
Arms that I thought loved, arms that I thought were a convention of honesty and trust.
Arms that I thought were the one place I could die and it would be alright!!
You were supposed to love me!
You were supposed to tell me that my demons were yours.
We were supposed to fight them together, you’d be batman and I’d be your sidekick.
Now, now I am choking on my words.
I’m am suffocating under your heated gaze.
The look of disgust that’s proudly sitting on your face is a like a dagger that drives itself into my chest.
But of course it misses and you have to thrust and thrust and thrust with force every single time and just as you pierce my heart you stop!
Is this what you wanted!?”
“Yes!
This is exactly what I wanted!
I need to make you feel pain.
Not just the pain of rejection!
The pain I feel when I look at you every day.
The disgust I feel for you when you’re lying in my arms.
Arms that aren't meant for you!
Arms that you've colonized, thinking I cared.
You disgust me.
The Disgust I feel for you is like a hate that burns deep in the pit of my heart.
The Disgust I feel for you is like a hunger I can’t satisfy until you are broken.
And even then that isn’t enough.
Don’t you get it!!
This.
Us.
This was never real it was a sick illusion for a sick little girl."
You looked at me with what I thought was love.
You smiled at me with what I thought was affection.
You made me laugh till every part of my body shook.
I was in heaven, I was in your arms.
Arms that I thought loved, arms that I thought were a convention of honesty and trust.
Arms that I thought were the one place I could die and it would be alright!!
You were supposed to love me!
You were supposed to tell me that my demons were yours.
We were supposed to fight them together, you’d be batman and I’d be your sidekick.
Now, now I am choking on my words.
I’m am suffocating under your heated gaze.
The look of disgust that’s proudly sitting on your face is a like a dagger that drives itself into my chest.
But of course it misses and you have to thrust and thrust and thrust with force every single time and just as you pierce my heart you stop!
Is this what you wanted!?”
“Yes!
This is exactly what I wanted!
I need to make you feel pain.
Not just the pain of rejection!
The pain I feel when I look at you every day.
The disgust I feel for you when you’re lying in my arms.
Arms that aren't meant for you!
Arms that you've colonized, thinking I cared.
You disgust me.
The Disgust I feel for you is like a hate that burns deep in the pit of my heart.
The Disgust I feel for you is like a hunger I can’t satisfy until you are broken.
And even then that isn’t enough.
Don’t you get it!!
This.
Us.
This was never real it was a sick illusion for a sick little girl."
I just got done watching
Twilight. I swore I'd never watch something so stupid, but I
decided that I wanted to see it before I judged it, because I used
to swear that Harry potter was terrible before I watched it, and
now it's my obsession. And I must say, Twilight is as bad as I
thought it would be, and ten times worse. Renesmee is the most
beautiful child I have ever seen, and that is THEE only good thing
I have to say about the series. The rest is barbaric, absolutely
barbaric. How can any of you possibly claim to enjoy such absolute
vile, cruel and vicious evil? People being torn limb-from-limb,
burned and vicously tortured? How can any of you claim to enjoy
seeing something that totally and completely disgusting? You
barbarians.
Get your heads checked for brain famine.
Get your heads checked for brain famine.
Today I was shown a picture of me two years ago which was compared
with one taken two weeks ago. I am disgusting.
A McDonald's McRib sandwich contains some of the same ingredients found in yoga mats.
Just think about that for a second.
To feel ugly on the inside,
No amount of make-up, pretty clothes or compliments can make you feel good when you think about yourself and just feel
disgusted
Is one of the worst feelings in the world
