I do not think anyone sees this, but I want to say it. First of
all, sorry for my bad English.
It's really horrible knowing that my life depends on someone
I don't know, they don't know of my
existence.
They don't know that I exist.
And I love them, but they could never say me
"beautiful", and I'll never hug them.
They are only idols, I'm one in a million.
"they are only idols", no, they are like my
life, my heart, my head, all my body.
And I love them more than people that I have beside
me.
I can say you that It's nothing cute cry in front of a
screen, watching meet and greets, things that only happen in
America.
Oh, everything would be easier if I lived there, in america!
But "the world is not a wish-granting factory": a
stupid phrase of a stupid movie, but, is the truth. Okay, the
movie is not stupid, and the book... either.
But, can you understand? I look like a depressed teenager, but...
It's not like that. I want to publish my whim, my
"sentences" it's very egocentric, i know that but,
i don't have no one here...
And, after all, they're "just idols".
"Just idols", nothing more...
"Just idols".
It will be easier if
they where "just idols" but no, they're a part of
my life, of my heart, of all i am.