It is very very easy
to seep into despair, but if we seep into despair we do the
devil's work. Do you understand that? You do the work of your
enemies.
“
If
you let hope inside, it takes you over. It feeds on your insides
and uses your bones to climb and grow. Eventually it becomes the
thing that is your bones, that holds you together. Holds you up
until you don’t know how to live without it anymore. To
pull it out of you would kill you entirely.—Ally Condie
”
Hope has two beautiful daughters; their names are Anger and Courage. Anger at the way things are, and Courage to see that they do not remain as they are.
Imperfection is perfection in
itself.
my
sick fantasy
all the world, my children
for you no hands will raise
the knife won't cut your names
the roads with the gravel
your gums won't have to taste
I hope you never dream like me
unfolding my sick fantasy
all the world, my children
to feed you only love
all the world, my children
for you no hands will raise
the knife won't cut your names
the roads with the gravel
your gums won't have to taste
I hope you never dream like me
unfolding my sick fantasy
all the world, my children
to feed you only love
"How are you?" they ask, stroking your arm.
They see the scars. They know why they're there. They don't like it any more than you do.
You shrug off the smiles and the questions. "I'm fine." A thousand other answers spring to your tongue, begging to leap out into the air. "I'm still hurting", "I need to know it's okay to cry", "I need to know why you say such cruel things about the man I love[d]", "I loved him once. And i still love him. And i will ALWAYS love him.", "What do you do, when you've found your happily ever after, but someone else slammed the door shut in your face?", but most pressing of all...
"Do you believe in life after love?"
You stare into the mirror, when the guests have come and gone, the wine drunken, the bread broken. You stare at your eyes and your nose and your lips and remind yourself that someone once loved not just the body you wear, but also the mind and heart and spirit and soul inside. You stare at yourself and smile. You know the answer.
"There is no life after love. Love never leaves."
