but then I just feel so average...I think to myself..."what is it about me, why would anyone see anything beautiful, interesting or unique about me?"
And I am not saying this to get attention, that is actually how I feel about myself, like I'm just this little nothing....like people can pass by me so easily
So yes, when people do actually notice me first, again I like to be noticed, but I always think in the back of my mind, "I'm not special" and it kind of makes
being happy and trusting people very difficult
I feel different from others
But yet, too ordinary, to get noticed
I feel like I want to be heard
But I'm so shy and quiet
I feel like most of the time, I am unheard and unseen
I want to blend in
But then, the thought of being like other people
Scares me. I would rather be different
And have less friends and attention
Than be like everyone else
And get more attention
It doesn't matter if you are actually beautiful or special in reality
Because you can never see it when you look at yourself
in the mirror
Imagine living with a perception of yourself
that is so distorted
You literally can't see your body the way it is
It's a very isolating experience
It's a constant feeling in your head
That you are either
Not thin enough, not pretty enough
That you are not good enough
That you are a worthless human being
That there is no point to your existance
This is what I feel like all the time
Does anyone else feel like this?
Now he only thought about the past.
Everything I touch
Slowly Dies...
LIKE
IF I SHOULD SEND THIS TO MY CRUSH?
Dear_____,
I like you, ,okay? I have for ages now. Your perfect in every
single way. Your the cutest boy ive ever came across, your
the one for me and I'm the one for you. I remember years ago
when we first met, at a fanily party. As soon as I seen you, I
fell in love with you. After the party, I didnt see you or hear
from you for about six months. Then, you made a facebook account
and added me, I screamed and accepted it. You told me all your
feelings towards me and I was so happy. I was the happiest girl
alive. You liked me and I liked you. We were finally together!
But there was the downbits.. You lived ages away, you didnt go my
school. We arranged times to go out if we had time or if we didnt
have any plans with family. Our love was so strong, but we split
up. I still remember that paragraph today. It was something like
''Moll, I'm so sorry, I feel so bad wben i do
this, but its for the better. I'm feeling awful
because I'm hardly getting to see you and it's hard
because I'm always out playing football with my friends, I
love you, maybe in a few years, if I'm in your form, we might
be able to get together again, best friends
forever<3'' I read that message at 2am, in
the morning. I was broken and torn apart, though I knew it was
for the best as I missed you loads, and I hardly got to see you.
I just wanted to let you know I've loved you ever since, and
I wanted to let you know. Your perfect, amazing, fab, gorgreous.
I hope you feel the same about me. I'm so happy that I'm
in most of your lessons and that your in my form, that we've
been reunited together! I love you<3
