anxiety, soda, and a period
equals the most intense cramps
you will ever feel, apparently. like
I woke up to go to school, where
I will see the teacher that probably
read every word of my god awful
paper, including the stuff about
r.ape (hopefully she won't bring it
up and we can forget that my paper
is even a thing that happened.) and
I was thirsty, and coke was the first
cold thing I saw, and I drank it. holy
s.hit that was the worst thing to do
because for some reason instantly
after I felt like an alien was ripping
it's way out of my uterus. AND I
AM STILL THIRSTY??
equals the most intense cramps
you will ever feel, apparently. like
I woke up to go to school, where
I will see the teacher that probably
read every word of my god awful
paper, including the stuff about
r.ape (hopefully she won't bring it
up and we can forget that my paper
is even a thing that happened.) and
I was thirsty, and coke was the first
cold thing I saw, and I drank it. holy
s.hit that was the worst thing to do
because for some reason instantly
after I felt like an alien was ripping
it's way out of my uterus. AND I
AM STILL THIRSTY??
Can I just have different life please? I'm sick of
how this one is playing out.
I hate always being the one who has to start the conversation.
I'll just look desperate. You haven't bothered to talk to
me all day and it's making me question if you even want to be
in a relationship with me.
I don't expect anyone to like this.. I just need to get this
off my chest. Like badly.
Dear you,
Dear you,
You said you would always be here for me. Well where the
hell are you at?.. I haven't heard from you in what seems
months. I know we talk, but only every few weeks. We use to talk,
like alllll the time. What changed that? Our conversations
have gone to crap & the worse part is, no matter what,
I'm always going to be thinking of you. I can't help it
but feel this way towards you.. I don't like what you do to
me.
I've needed you more than ever right now & you know what, you're not here. I tried so hard not loose you...
"I promise, I'll always be here for you. I'm not going to leave like the others.." do you remember that? You said that.
You may say I'm not loosing you, that you're working everyday now & don't have time to talk or text or anything anymore. But yet, I see your instagram & your friends profiles. So you're to busy to talk to me but not anybody else?? I've just wanted to tell you all thiis, but..but I can't...I'm scared of what you'll say or that you'll say another excuse & the sad part, I'll probably believe it, even if I know it's not true, I still accept it. Do you even think about me anymore? I think about you like freaking crazy. I hate it. This is not healthy, for me that is. I'm not obssessed with you, I promise, it's just that I'm so use to talk to you everyday & now none. It's a big change.
I just wish you'd open your eyes & if you do think about me, I wish you would tell me. Just say something, please!
This is me saying something to you now, even I know theres like a 99% chance you won't see this;
I love you so much & I miss you.
I've needed you more than ever right now & you know what, you're not here. I tried so hard not loose you...
"I promise, I'll always be here for you. I'm not going to leave like the others.." do you remember that? You said that.
You may say I'm not loosing you, that you're working everyday now & don't have time to talk or text or anything anymore. But yet, I see your instagram & your friends profiles. So you're to busy to talk to me but not anybody else?? I've just wanted to tell you all thiis, but..but I can't...I'm scared of what you'll say or that you'll say another excuse & the sad part, I'll probably believe it, even if I know it's not true, I still accept it. Do you even think about me anymore? I think about you like freaking crazy. I hate it. This is not healthy, for me that is. I'm not obssessed with you, I promise, it's just that I'm so use to talk to you everyday & now none. It's a big change.
I just wish you'd open your eyes & if you do think about me, I wish you would tell me. Just say something, please!
This is me saying something to you now, even I know theres like a 99% chance you won't see this;
I love you so much & I miss you.
what did i do.
why did i do that.
what the f.uck.
i ruined my life.
what the F.UCK
how will i live with myself???
how do i forget.
i want to forget everything.
I lied to your face today, well, not
your face - someone else's.
I lied because you were in the room, and my answer was for you - not them.
My answers are always for you.
I lied because I did not want you to know I had broken my promise.
I lied because I did not want you to cry again, and I was unsure of
how you would react this time - the third time.
Would you be sad? Would you cry like the first time I had told the truth,
in the dark of my bedroom? And would you beg for me not to do it again, beg for me to promise?
Or would you reprimand me, like you had the second time? Will you tut and sigh and act like
my existence is this great burden and you are tired of my weight?
I lied because I do not want there to be a third time,
and I lied because I do not want to be judged.
I say I lied for you, but mostly I lied for myself.
I lied because you were in the room, and my answer was for you - not them.
My answers are always for you.
I lied because I did not want you to know I had broken my promise.
I lied because I did not want you to cry again, and I was unsure of
how you would react this time - the third time.
Would you be sad? Would you cry like the first time I had told the truth,
in the dark of my bedroom? And would you beg for me not to do it again, beg for me to promise?
Or would you reprimand me, like you had the second time? Will you tut and sigh and act like
my existence is this great burden and you are tired of my weight?
I lied because I do not want there to be a third time,
and I lied because I do not want to be judged.
I say I lied for you, but mostly I lied for myself.
I hate
worrying
so much
that
it makes
me sick
to my
stomach
"Post a Funny
Joke"
SCHOOL LOL
SCHOOL LOL
