of
course I miss you ...
tha'ts actually the only thing i can think about...
but at the same time I'm not going back
to someone who is glad to have me out of their
life.
12 Weeks clean... the longest I've ever
been... and all I want to do right now is break. My
demons have just been too loud to handle lately.
I'm not the type of girl everyone wants to be
friends, the girl that all the boys want, the girl that everyone
talks to or that everyonewants to talk to, the girl that's
always happy,the girl that goes out with friends, the girl that
goes to house parties, the girl that has the best clothes, the
girl who's notifactions always blow up or the girl that's
really pretty.
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I'm the type of girl that doesn't have alot of friends but is happy with the one's that she has. I'm the type of girl that guys don't really talk to and don't really have any guy friends with the exception of one who's been bestfriends with her since kindergarden, I'm the type of girl that forgot what it's like to be happy, the girl that stays home up in her room listening to music most of the time instead of being with friends, I'm the type of girl that doesn't get invited to house parties, the girl that can't afford and iPhone but loves her iPod with everything she has, the girl that talks to very few of her friends outside of school, the girl who always sits on the bus alone unless someone doesn't have anywhere else to sit, the girl that thinks very poorly of herself and lacks pretty much all of her self-esteem, I'm the girl that hates herself so much but will do anything to convince someone else that they're beautiful inside and out cos she knows it's the truth, the girl that wishes things could be different, the girl that gets picked last in gym class, the girl that thinks her friends don't like her and that they only act like it cos they feel bad for her, the girl that wants to be pretty, the girl that wishes she was enough,the girl that wants to be satisfied with herself, I'm that girl that wishes she was everything she's not.
I'm the type of girl not many people wanna be.
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I'm the type of girl that doesn't have alot of friends but is happy with the one's that she has. I'm the type of girl that guys don't really talk to and don't really have any guy friends with the exception of one who's been bestfriends with her since kindergarden, I'm the type of girl that forgot what it's like to be happy, the girl that stays home up in her room listening to music most of the time instead of being with friends, I'm the type of girl that doesn't get invited to house parties, the girl that can't afford and iPhone but loves her iPod with everything she has, the girl that talks to very few of her friends outside of school, the girl who always sits on the bus alone unless someone doesn't have anywhere else to sit, the girl that thinks very poorly of herself and lacks pretty much all of her self-esteem, I'm the girl that hates herself so much but will do anything to convince someone else that they're beautiful inside and out cos she knows it's the truth, the girl that wishes things could be different, the girl that gets picked last in gym class, the girl that thinks her friends don't like her and that they only act like it cos they feel bad for her, the girl that wants to be pretty, the girl that wishes she was enough,the girl that wants to be satisfied with herself, I'm that girl that wishes she was everything she's not.
I'm the type of girl not many people wanna be.
