Letters to my body parts.
I am sorry for using you for tears,
but I couldn't help it. I was hurt.
You were always swollen by night.
Red in the morning, I'm sorry.
Dear my nose,
I was always timid about you,
the one that collected my air.
Kept me alive, but was big.
Big noses weren't "pretty"
I'm really sorry.
Dear my arms,
I'm sorry for disliking you,
The size of you, I hated my weight.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for leaving scars.
Hiding you from the world, I'm sorry.
Dear my legs,
I'm sorry for scarring you,
kept you hidden. Hated the size.
I am sorry for keeping you a lie.
Secretly thinking badly of you.
Dear my stomach,
I've always had the worse of it in you.
The pain is excruciating to stop eating.
Just to keep you skinny, you were hungry.
I know. And I was cruel. I let out starve.
I remembered your compaints of groans.
Hurt as you groaned, I know.
I hoped you knew, you were beautiful at the start.