Dear S (Initial of boy),
Can you tell? I've been trying to make it obvious lately. I
used to hide it. Now I want you to know. I've told everyone
who asks the truth, hoping it will get back to you. It's just
that I'm too scared to tell you. I don't want to ruin our
friendship. Being away from you, just for the weekend, kills me.
Normal people get excited for 3 day weekends. I dread them. I
can't stand not seeing you for a day. Every love song I hear,
I think of you and end up smiling, so much that the people around
me will ask why I'm smiling. And I know you won't see
this, and even if you do, you won't know it's me. I just
feel like I need to let this out. I'm literally crying right
now. I miss you. You always talk about that other girl. You show
me her texts, and you never text me. You talk to me, and we
laugh, but you won't accept my friend requests or respond to
my emails. We are best friends, yet you make me feel so unwanted,
and it kills me. The truth is, I love you. More than any other
guy I've ever met. And I know this may sound like some
stupid, naive, teenager thing that will pass, but it's not.
It's so much more than that. I don't know if you feel the
same way, but you need to know this. And if you some how come
across this and just know it's me and feel the same way, say
this code sentence so I know for sure you saw it: You're
giraffe has a purple t-shirt. I know, it's a weird, awkward
sentence, but it's the only way I'll know you saw and
feel the same way. Until this day comes, and it probably never
will, I'll just be sitting here, hoping and praying you love
me and not her.
Love, Me <3