Imiss
you sobadithurts...I want
to bewithyou...butweknowitwill never
happen...soI sithere nowafter
speaking withyou,dealingwithall the miles of thoughts
youhelped mefight offwhile
you wereawake, but
you'rehuman too
andneed
sleep...so
I'mleft
aloneagain...alonewith mythoughts and confused tears...witha
fewfriends...friendsthatwill destroy me ifIletthem...
It's so lonely here
I can't shed a tear
I stand outside of the circle
Waiting for a miracle
Watching everyone inside
While I go inside myself and hide
Trying to heal the burn
While I secretly yearn
To be just like them
I'm done being the problem
I just want to belong
It's been so long
Since i could rely on someone
Without the fear of ending alone
Where once was sorrow but fire
Now is numbness and such a tire
My feelings have vanished
To feel anything, even tarnished
Would be a welcome relief
I am done with beliefs
Nothing can save me now
It is time for the final bow.
~ written by me