I love your
smile, and I thank you for passing it onto me, even though it
doesn't look as good when I wear it. I love your humour
and charisma. I love how you care and how you teach me to be
kind. I love you because you only want good for me and
because you love me unconditionally. I know I drive you up
the wall sometimes..and even just writing that I know
it's still such an understatement. The truth is I'm a
wreck. I'm a ball of stress and anxiousness, and I rarely
make sense. But you love me, and thinking about it now, that
too doesn't make sense.
I was a foolish little child, the crazy things I used to do, all
the pain I put you through, Mama now I'm here for you. All
the times I made you cry, the days I told you lies, now it's
time I realised all of the things you sacrificed. Oh, if I could
turn back time you know that I would make it undone, I swear that
I would. And I would make it up to you. Mum I'm grown up now,
it's a brand new day, I'd like to put a smile on your
face everyday.
I'm a conflicted mess
and if you want to help, keep your distance. I may be
conflicted but I'll bounce back. Let me be sad for a
couple hours. I need it. I need to feel low if I'm ever
going to get any better. Let me stay in bed for the rest of
the night. I don't want to eat dinner because I know it
won't go down well. I just need a few hours to myself.
To work things out, or ignore them completely. I like that
you care, but I need my space right now. Stop breathing
down my neck, and let me be sad. At least just for
now.
