The things I wish I could say about
you, the father of my child. I used to could say some of the
kindest things, but now the things you say are
cruel. You tell me you
don't love me, when you used to tell me
everyday. You would run your fingers through my hair now instead
you'd rather pull it. You used to hold my
heart carefully in your hands, but now you'd rather
crush it. Instead of telling me I'm
beautiful each and everyday you tell me how ugly
and fat I am. You tell me I can
never take care of our baby right. And when you
don't have to work and I'm so happy your home so we can
spend days together you leave me and our son all
alone at home to hang out with your friends.
Last year around this time we were so full of
love we were bursting from the seams. Now you are
filled with hatred towards me. I can't help
that I have stretch marks and gained some
baby weight but you were so happy when we found
out that I was pregnant. Now you look at me with
disgust and only hold your son to feed him. You
never sit and talk to him for hours at a time
like I do. But, I know you love him. I
just wish I knew you loved me too. :( But sadly I know
you don't love me anymore but I don't
want our son to have split up parents so I'll take all your
abuse like a pill one at a time until my body
can't take it anymore.
Yes.
I am an attention seeker.
I think that started when my mother decided to neglect me for the first 13 years of my life.
Before I decided I was done dealing with it, and I sent myself to boarding school.
And all I've ever wanted was
for your damn arms
to wrap themelvses around me and say
Hey girl, you’re the prettiest thing my eyes have ever seen
Come and lay your bones down with me
Hey girl, you’re the prettiest thing my heart has ever known
Come and lay your bones down with me
to wrap themelvses around me and say
Hey girl, you’re the prettiest thing my eyes have ever seen
Come and lay your bones down with me
Hey girl, you’re the prettiest thing my heart has ever known
Come and lay your bones down with me
This goes to all this
kids who didn't get the love they
deserved.
BandStuff #04:
When the minor instruments like French Horn and Oboe get almost completely ignored by the band instructor.
When the minor instruments like French Horn and Oboe get almost completely ignored by the band instructor.
"Indifference and neglect often do much more damage than outright dislike."
-J.K. Rowling
